the mask of music

Wednesday, November 14, 2007

i'm gonna work, then u still wanna be so stingy abt money.. damn it la.. i mean its like givin me more cos i'll not be home for like 2 plus weeks also cannot ah?? got wrong ah?? damn it la.. then wadeva i eat also muz report.. damn it la.. i'm not gonna do it.. makin me like a damn prisoner.. freaking hell la.. its like saying.. wad the HELL.. i cant stand it.. now wad.. i shld haf known beta den to work there.. now i've nth left.. NTH at all.. why mus i be sad all the time?? why is every1 hurting me?? i feel so down right now.. i meant to work for 2 & a half weeks so that i can get the money to get my frds presents.. but now, my plans are spoiled.. by wad.. i cant even spend my own money.. i'm not allowed to haf an atm card for my own bank acc.. so now u're gonna put all my money inside.. sayin it SO FUCKIN NICELY THAT IT'S MY ACC.. DAMN IT.. FUCK.. i had plans.. why dun u fuckin tell me earlier, then i can go find other jobs..???? now all is gone.. wad i thought abt.. is smashed by u this fucking 2 arseholes.. damn it.. i hate my LIFE.. cryin silently now.. not lettin anyone know.. how can my hard work be put like that?? i intend to work frm 8 to 8 everyday.. which is freaking 12 hours.. and 8 to 5.30 on weekends.. so now wad? i shldn't bother working?? i feel so hurt.. so i'm bad evil.. shitty.. wad else.. i'm a bitch?? wth.. i'm always feelin so down.. but wad else can i do.. cry to myself.. and comfort myself.. i ain't able to talk to no one.. hurt.. tears rolling down.. but no one noes.. hurt hurt hurt hurt hurt hurt hurt.. i feel so darn hurt by all this.. fairy tale nv happen.. wad do i do right now? happy ending dun last.. evil surpass them to the dark edge of the table.. i wanna be able to know things.. i'm talentless.. why can ppl all do things well while i cant?? wad do i do to turn things around??

as sung at [12:59 AM]

Monday, November 12, 2007

After i finished blogging last night, boyfriend called.
And we talked.
:D Ok, we played this game 2 days ago.
At 9:20pm.
That game was, he cannot say "I love you" for 24 hours.
I was the one who initiated that game. Damn stupid of me right? Yea, agreed!
And if he were to say it, he cannot leave me.
But if he managed to win, then i'd have to do something which i super don't want.
Haha, but i won't type it here. :D
Whenever he say "i love you", i'd say "your problem lah!".
Then he'll always get irritated and decided not to say anymore.
Haha! But i know he will.
So yea, that's why we played that super !@#$%^&*( game. -.-!
Then for the whole of yesterday, he didn't say "i love you" to me at all.
That explains why i doubted him.
Dumb, i know.
Then at 9:07pm last night, which was 13 minutes before he'd win, he said, "i love you".
Wth! I swear i thought i was hallucinating!
Dammit!
I was damn shocked.
I was happy too!
Super.
And the reason why he let me win was because he don't want to leave me.
HOHOHO! HAPPY LAH!!
I was super duper duper happy last night lah!!!
I kept smiling to myself.
Dammit, i guess i must have looked like a retard.
Psst! I won! :D:D :D :D :D :D :D :D
I'm freaking happy. Even till now.Yay!!
We played another game just now.
But i won't be going into the details about that game.
Because it was torturous!
And boyfriend was at an advantage! Not fair!
Omg! And that game is to be continued till tmr.
Dammit! I want to go call boyfriend alr!

I HURTSSSSSSSSS......... FUCK OFFFFF!!!!!!!!!

as sung at [2:55 PM]

I cant believe that this is happening to me time and again.. I feel so hurt.. deep down inside.. u were the first guy who made me cry and u made me cry again.. I'm so hurt.. i believed you when u said it was one sided love.. i din imagine that i was all wrong.. i saw her blog.. i commented u in friendster.. she viewed me.. i saw her blog add.. i cant believe it.. wad a liar.. i HATE 2 TIMERS.. i told u B4.. i repeated myself again jus now.. DAMN IT.. I HATE YOUUUUUUUU.....

as sung at [2:40 PM]

Monday, November 05, 2007

hurt u left me.. thou it's my fault, at least u still can reply my msg.. nvm.. jus pass me my things.. there're not mine.. N i haf to get it bac.. the feelings dat was once there R all now gone.. mayB not all.. but.. lost i feel.. blurred abt my own self.. not knowin anything.. i wanna noe.. if u love sum1, u'll wan him or her to be happy.. N not love yet hurt them.. maybe.. i can change the heartaches of the past.. i cried myself to slp.. feelin my eyes so heavy in the morn.. puttin a smile on my face so dat no one noes if i'm sad or feelin down.. smilin is all i can do to not make any1 worry.. i feel so hurt.. i wanted to scream out loud.. Y's my life suddenly in a mess.. Damn it.. maybe i'm jus a STUPID FOOL.. i dun even noe myself!!! ARGHH..

as sung at [10:24 AM]

Thursday, November 01, 2007

Haha.. hmm.. blog again.. muahaha.. cos I’m eatin & I’m bored.. eatin curry maggie wif 3 pieces of oyster mushroom.. hee.. eatin dis reminds me of wad Delon bought for pignette.. haha.. soup sia.. so sweet lor.. pignette’s so lucky la.. my dar dar also sweet enough la.. Lawn got no exam ma.. but dar got exam, he still comes once in a while.. pei me lor.. my dar so sweet.. hope I really do appreciate.. I din appreciate my ex.. he EVERYDAY come pei me.. but I still broke up wif him.. no chemistry ah.. haha.. but we still frds.. BORED.. exam’s in 1 hr time.. lalala... goin there to freeze all over again.. haha.. bored.. dar so lazy.. dun wanna cook and eat.. I’m so broke.. wanna faster work and earn money.. then I can go shoppin.. and eat good food.. my wish to be a tai tai.. dar say he’ll let me be a tai tai nxt time.. haha.. ^^

as sung at [12:38 PM]

Your Love ft Delon

Every time I close my eyes,
and say my prayer at night
I thank God each day for your love,
that gives me wings to fly up high

Bridge:
To reach my dream aim for the sky,
you always said

Chorus:
Your head up high,
smile on your face and wish
That you will always be loved
the stars will lead you every step you take
Don’t you ever be afraid,
believe in you
And I’ll be there to guide you,
wherever you may go (away)
Thank you for your love,
forever
(Giving me my wings to fly high)

Bridge
Chorus

When I am down
and the things go wrong
The world against me too
I close my eyes and think of you
And knew what you would say now

Chorus

as sung at [11:23 AM]

It a gone case.. i've jus returned frm my POA paper.. and it's really a goner.. gosh.. i was ALMOST LATE AGAIN.. gosh.. stupid me.. dar dar called.. but i rejected his call.. cos i was slpin.. so cold last night la.. rained again ma.. haha.. I was able to balance the first question the trial balance only.. but the rest all buang.. cham ahh.. gone case liao me.. i can go no where liao.. grr.. my dar dar's so sweet.. I'm satisfied i THINK.. haha.. lovin myself is wad i do best? or issit? haha.. wad eva.. I wanna go on a DIET.. RUN RUN.. SWIM SWIM.. GYM GYM.. haha.. chiong excercise.. Hope exams FASTER END!!! [Do dey think u're a strong,Ur pride foolish pride, battles won, was it worth it..]

as sung at [11:05 AM]