Monday, October 27, 2008
having no more feelings for me was a lie..
and he wanted me back..
i dunno why, but i gaf him a chance to prove himself..
he came over to fetch me last night..
and sent me to work in the morn..
the msged me last last night..
"where're you"
i replied, at home.. why?
i received the same msg again last night..
at 3am again?
crazy right??
i was hoping that he'd be downstairs..
at the carpark waiting for me..
coming to say sorry..
and yet he said he was hoping that i would wait for him at his staircase..
but i wouldn't haf any face to meet him..
cos he was the one who initiated the break up..
i was the one who kept questioning why..
and finally gave up hope asking..
but when i stopped asking,
he came back for me..
i hope this will really last forever..
this time round..
^^
like a knife stabbing..
i thot my love curse was only for 1 mth..
thot that i could stop worrying when we had our 3mths anni..
nv to know that as msg to break up could hurt me so badly..
pain shivers in my heart..
life seems meaningless, yet i'm in a delimia..
i wish u'll take me back..
i've got no idea why u cant trust me..
i dunno why the feeling u haf for me is gone..
i got no understanding as to why..
when i love someone too much,
they lose their feelings for me..
i feel like i'm not worthy to be love..
there are many other better girls out there..
and if he's happy being alone..
or finding someone else..
i'd be happy..
u tell me there're better guys out there..
everyone tells me that..
but i dun wan any other ppl..
i dun wanna love someone else..
i only love u..
maybe u loved me too quickly..
that's why the feeling went away..
i wish i could turn back time to be a better person..
to love u less so that u'll keep loving me..
there ain't no happy endings in the world rite??
everything ppl said are lies..
we had many happy times..
really happy..
cycling, movie, and watching dvd's
jurong hill.. u rode me there..
and it was the first time i went there..
maybe i should stop loving..
or maybe i should jus leave this cruel world soon..
i'm really very hurt..
trying to put on a smile to calm myself..
not to let ppl worry.. pretending to laugh..
i hope i go crazy and forget things someday..
i hope u'll love me..
i still do.. and i'll always love u..
